Lauren Morgan

My healing journey has been a long and tumultuous path, marked by numerous personal battles and profound transformations. By the age of 11, I was clinically depressed, a condition that only worsened as I navigated my teenage years. To cope with the emotional pain, I resorted to self-harm, burning my own flesh to mask the turmoil within. By the time I reached 19, I had attempted suicide four times, feeling an overwhelming sense of hopelessness.

My twenties were no reprieve. They were characterized by relentless substance abuse and disordered eating patterns. I turned to drugs and alcohol to numb my feelings and made myself throw up in a desperate attempt to conform to societal standards of beauty. I believed that by “looking the role” of happiness, I could somehow become happy. Instead, I found myself trapped in a cycle of self-loathing and despair.
From ages 28 to 30, my physical health deteriorated rapidly. I suffered from daily seizures, which forced me to leave my career as a biopharmaceutical scientist. My body was breaking down, and I felt like an empty shell of the person I once was.

The turning point in my life came quite unexpectedly. One day, as I was walking my dogs through a field behind our house, I watched them leap and bound with pure, unadulterated joy. Their happiness was palpable, and it triggered a flood of emotions within me. I felt jealousy, anger, and an overwhelming sense of exhaustion. It dawned on me that I hadn’t experienced genuine joy in an incredibly long time.
In that moment, I fell to the ground, screaming and crying, unleashing animalistic noises from the depths of my soul. I raised both arms to the sky, flipping up my middle fingers, and gave the universe a giant “FUCK YOU.” Amidst my screams and tears, a soft voice whispered to me, telling me that life wasn’t meant to be this painful or difficult. It was a moment of clarity, and I made a solemn promise to heal myself completely and to learn the true meaning of self-love.
The Journey to Healing
With renewed determination, I ventured into various healing modalities, including Ayurveda, Shamanism, and Hypnosis. I began working with energy, addressing my toxic subconscious patterns and beliefs, and striving to find balance in my body, soul, and emotional well-being. Through these practices, I discovered the immense power of self-healing.
I learned what it means to embody the qualities of a leader and how to ignite that spark in others. My healing journey has taught me the importance of self-love, resilience, and the incredible potential we all have to transform our lives.

Today, as I reflect on my past, I am filled with gratitude for the experiences that have shaped me into the person I am now. My healing journey has been anything but easy, but it has been profoundly rewarding. I have found joy, balance, and a deep sense of purpose.

If you are struggling, know that healing is possible. It begins with a promise to yourself—a commitment to seek out the tools and support you need to find balance and happiness. My story is a testament to the incredible power of transformation and the limitless potential within each of us. By embracing your shadows, you awaken your light. You are Spiritual Leaders in the making.